Carol Annes Poetry Challenge for The Bee

Hello everybody, so lovely to be part of this great blog. I am very excited especially about this project that Carol Anne and I are starting today:

Once a week Carol Anne will give me a prompt and I will write a poem to it.

I love writing poetry and don’t do it nearly enough. That is why this project is so wonderful.

This week Carol Anne challenged me to write about “heal and recovery” and that is quite curious because I wrote a poem about my feelings as an abused child (trigger warning) for the German poetry project I take part in every November. You can find it here.

Just
a beacon
Far away
Then
When
His steps on the stairs
Tormented us

Hope and healing
Healing and hope

Far away
These beacons then.

And even though
We slip back
Into these
… moments

Now
I light
These beacons
Every day!

Feel free to write your own poem about “Heal and recovery”. Let us know about it and we come and visit your post. Have fun and thanks for reading.

Author: Bee Halton

Hello, nice to meet you! Please come in, have a cuppa of your favourite beverage and make yourself comfortable. My name is Bee and I am your hostess on an extraordinary journey: the exploration of self and of self-care if that is what you are looking for. I am curious: Where have you come from? And where are you going? You have no clear answer to that? Well, you are not alone. That is exactly the point that I found myself in on a cold January evening in 2018 at my old day job: Sales Assistant in a British supermarket. I was filling up shelves and tables with bread and rolls and suddenly knew I could not do it anymore. I knew I had to leave this job and discover why I was born and what the purpose of my life was. And at the same time, everything inside myself revolted against this knowledge. “I can’t do that! I can’t let Andy (my husband) down!! How would I pay the bills? What on earth am I thinking?!” So I left and called in sick the next morning. It extended to several months after which I tried to come back and just do what I used to do: Subdue my inner voice and keep paying the bills. It didn’t work, as you probably guessed. Since then I have had a thousand ideas of how I could make a living and many job applications which all led to nothing. I have been through fear, frustration and resentment of a situation I felt that I have brought myself in. Most of all, I felt guilty. Guilty that my family struggled/struggles with money and that my husband works like a donkey to keep us going. I felt that I let my loved ones down and that at last, I have shown who I really am: A total loser! I am at rock bottom. I don’t really understand why I am in this place (well, of course, I left my job without having another that’s the obvious bit) however, I believe there is always a reason why we experience certain things. There is a lesson to find in this and I have decided to find the lesson and to find the answers. When I left the day job I was utterly exhausted. Not only on a physical level but on a mental level too. I used to deal with the mental exhaustion with getting help from the Wellbeing service which usually was cognitive behavioural therapy. This time around I could not get therapy. So I decided to work with what I have: A brain that is capable of thinking and the internet which can give me the information I need. And an un-denying connection to powers that are not obviously seen in this physical reality. However, they look. The tools I am using currently to find the answers are daily meditation, working with positive affirmations, daily walks with the dog, gardening, self-help and self-improvement books and writing. Blogging more correctly. And a huge part plays creativity: photography and creating mugs that motivate writers and bloggers to write. My life is a work in progress. Or maybe it is just a proper midlife-crisis. It definitely is a journey and I want to take you with me. Come and see what’s out there. Come and share your experiences and let’s go together. Because journeying and discovering is always more fun together. I = BEE HALTON On a spiritual journey Self and self-care explorer happily married 2 best husband (Jeremy Clarkson voice) in world blogger occasional book reviewer poetess, constant book, quote and blog sharer & proudly owned by @Sherkshound, Also certified Teacher of English as a Second Language Teacher, Sales Assistant with an NVQ in Retail & Diploma in social work with main subject work with the elderly Compared by NARIC as British Bachelor degree standard, Currently learning to code via freeCodeCamp

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