woke up a few mins ago. cant go back to sleep. gonna stay up. feeling a little bit scared but trying not to be. i hate the dark though. got up and made some tea. that feels good. going to sit here and read emails and respond to them. thanks for all of the support that all of you gave em earlier. i really appreciate it. so glad she’s reaching out. she finds it so hard to reach out. so its so nice of you all to comment to her and help support her. its now officially halloween here. although the hard part for us doesnt begin until later tonight. im just glad we’re seeing dr. barry this morning. i put on the radio to drown out my thoughts. maybe music will help me. mostly it always does. ok going to go make some more tea.