Im swimming in pain right now. Grief. Pain and memories and trauma. Ug. This is hard. This is shit. I feel like crap.
Im trying to distract. I have a show on tv and Im trying to watch it. Its not really working. Think now is the time I wish I had some meds that’d knock me out. Some PRN meds.
I used to take Haldol PRN. But now I don’t. Now I wish I did.
I may ask dr. barry for some tomorrow. I hope she’ll ok it.
I really wish I did not feel so bad. It feelsjust so horrible.