hhihihihi everybody
im so sad. i realy wanna die. i dont feel i can go on. i feel so sad and my heart is hurting. i just feel so scared and so sad.
i cant take the pressure. everything is so overwhelming. my head hurts. my chest is tight. my heart pounds. my stomach is feeling puky. i feel like im going to be sick. it feels icky.
this is a awful time of year. i remember realy bad things. about rituals. and memories of abuse. and people who hurt us. and did real bad things to us.
the memories wont stop. they come at night. and now it is night time. its almost 9 pm. im scared. scared to go to sleep. scared of the dark. scared of everything.
someone make it stop. im afraid to go near the pills. cuz what if i take them all? i feel like i could. its hard to keep going on. its hard not to just give in. i am trying hard. trying to fight it.
butterfly hugs
Loves you,
Emily age 12
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I’m here Emily. We can do this together. Don’t give up. Believe me, I understand. Myra
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ok. ill try not to give up. its so hard. butterfly hugs. loves you, emily xox
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you got this. I’m rooting for you.
Myra
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thanks. your very nice. i like you lots. butterfly hugs. loves you, emily xox
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I like you to.
Myra
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❤ thank you xox butterfly hugs, emily!
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Triggers like that are so hard, but even though the time of year is the same and the memories are flying at you, where you are right now is safe in your home and tomorrow you’ll be safe at your mom’s. I know you can get through this. xo
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hi. i hope i can. i am trying, realy hard. i love you ashley, xox butterfly hugs, love, emily
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❤️❤️❤️
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❤ love hearts ❤ Xox
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Hi Emily, sending you a big hug. Please hang in there. Do you have a teddy bear to cuddle with? Or maybe Nitro? That is what I do when I feel really bad. I have a teddy bear I got from my godmother when I was 7. I still have it and hold it when bad memories come up. And now of course we have Sherky our dog too. You can manage. I believe in you 😚🐝🐶🙋❤
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i love you bee. thank you. i have lots of stuffies. right now i have my two bunnies. nibbles, and emilia. i love them. they’re so soft. butterfly hugs, loves you, xox 🙂 emily
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Lovely names 😚 mine doesn’t have one. I don’t know why. If I sent a picture to Carol Ann via email of it would you mind to find a nice name for him? 🙋🐝😚
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ok i can do that. i’d like that. we cant see a pic though. you’ll have to just tell us describe him for us. butterfly hugs, loves you, emily xox
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Oh of course I forgot that oooops ❤🐝
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hahaha, thats kinda funny i think. that you forgot. it is good in a way. cuz you dont see us as different then just cuz we cant see. butterfly hugs, loves you emily xox
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👍glad I could make you laugh. I am getting old I forget lots of things 😁 lol. Thanks for naming my bear. He lives the name and I do too. Take good care and I hope you get some sleep. Hugs 🐝
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hugs. im happy i got to name the bear. that is really special. loves you, em xox
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You are very welcome and I appreciate it very much. So does Clover 🙋😚❤
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Yay ❤ I am so happy! ❤ Thanks you made me smile! ❤ xox butterfly hugs! Emily
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I didnt see this. Hope u r better. We are here. In pigeon state but yea I’m up right now
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lol im going name you stoner pidgeon hahaha 😀 butterfly hugs, loves you, emily xox
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I’m stoner pigeon on rollercoaster in jail..
It’s too long but people will get used to that too
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yup. its realy cool. i think its fun. makes me laugh. thanks. 😀 butterfly hugs loves you, emily xox
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Hugs for you too Emily. Xoxo
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xoxoxox 🙂
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xoxo
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Good morning, or is it afternoon your time? Just gone 8 AM hear what’s up
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its 12.12 pm here.
good. morning 🙂 how are u today
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We are okay right now but I guess as the day progresses will probably feel a bit shit but that’s to be expected given the day it is 🙃
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no you wont. dont think like that. some told me until shit actually happens dont worry about it..
what day is it
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Oh it’s Halloween hear you know 31st of October we celebrate Halloween every year so yeah hate that day or full time of year for us memories of the past and all you know
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oh. no we dont have halloween as a major event here.
its gonna be ok. you have alll the love and support here.
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Yes I do and I’m so grateful for all of you and all the love and support I receive on here thank you X
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You can get through this! I believe in you! You have been through so much worse and are still standing strong. I hope you start to feel better soon love. ❤❤❤
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Thanks! I love you! Your just awesome! Big hugs back! Butterfly hugs, loves you, Emily xox
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One more day, dear. I’m sending a big hug and squeeze and a prayer. You’ll be just fine. xxx
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Thank you, Deb! One more day. I really cannot wait. I’ll be just so thrilled when tomorrows over. butterfly hugs, Loves you, Emily, xoxox
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Don’t give up. I know the memories are hard, and this time of year is absolutely horrible. Keep reminding yourself that you are safe now, and that you can handle this. Sending hugs. You’ve got this. 💕
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Oh thanks Alice! I’ve got this. I will keep saying that over and over! Thank you for believing in me. Butterfly hugs, loves you, Emily xox
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You’ve got this. 🧡
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❤ thanks. big hugs alice. ❤ Xxxx
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Em, its gonna be ok, ok? i know you feel alone. i know how alone feels. it feels sucky. the suckiest thing ever. and i know how the terror of memories feels. but you survived all of those things that happened to u. and not only did u survive, but u r thriving every day. you are stronger than all of those terrible people. you survived and you got out. you are stronger than them mentally and physically. you are safe. your parts will protect u and comfort you, and u in turn give them reassurance that they are still connected to someone beautiful and innocent and lovely: you. ♥♥♥♥ luv u.
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i love you, maureen! Thank you! You are so kind, such lovely things that you said to me here. butterfly hugs, loves you, emily xox
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u r so welcome. x) much love comes from my heart to yours. ♥ xoxoxo
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Xoxoxoxox ❤ love to you maureen!
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Hang in there you’ll make it! If you need to, talking to someone on a suicide hotline sometimes helps me. Idon’tknow the number in Irland though. You’ll make it, you are strong!
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Thank you. Sometimes I ring the Samaritans. They have a freephone hotline. I know the number. Thanks, XX butterfly hugs love emily
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I have had an anniversary trigger like that. I was raped when I was 12 on Dec 5th. Every year I suffered in emotional pain not matter how much trauma work I had done. My doc said try replacing that day with something to celebrate. Make ur mind up to celebrate something on that day. I dont really celebrate but I make sure something is planned that day so I’m with others. Works most of the time. I’m sorry your hurting right now.
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Sorry that happened to you. Celebrating and making the day special sounds like a plan. I will try that, thank you. Butterfly hugs, love emily XX
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Emily, I’m sorry you’re struggling so much. I so wish it could already be over for you. Sending you lots of hugs and love. I know you’re very strong, stronger than you think, and that you will get through this, but I also know it’s very hard and I’m with you in it.
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Thank you 🙂 love you 🙂 your so kind 🙂 sending you some hugs back. Butterfly hugs. Love see you. Emily
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Thanks, Emily. 🙂 ❤ 🤗
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😙👍💕
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