had a phone check in with eileen this afternoon. we didnt get to talk about much besides the accident. we talked about that for most of our check in. i know thats important though. she said we can work through it but for now for us to make sure we can soothe the kids, tell them they are safe, and we’re ok. i told her i was doing that. or trying to. she said if i need her to just text her and we can arrange to talk. i really appreciated that offer and was so grateful that she said i could contact her if needs be. i will see her next thursday morning, since monday is a bank holiday here. i’m going to try and deal with things on my own but its good to know if i need her i can reach her. i feel supported and held and contained by her which feels nice.