So despite us being off, despite Emily being really suicidal and just not very ok, I am going volunteering today.
Idont wanna let people down. They’re counting on me. They need me otherwise they’re down a staff member and down someone to make calls. If I don’t go they might not get all the calls covered.
So we are going. I have showered, and Emilys gone inside. She said she feels a little better but not much. For now though she’s inside and she said she’s going to stay there for now.
Volunteering isn’t for a few hours yet so there is time, time to pull ourselves together and get to a semi ok state if we can do that. I need to call my supervisor when she gets into work at 9 to ask her if she’s picking me up today and at what time.
I feel good about going. I think it will be good for us. No point to sitting at home, moping.