hhihihihii everybody
its me Emily. I feel so bad.
I don’t want to be here
I don’t want to be alive
I want to end it
I want to go away forever
I am so so scared
scared of my memories
scared of my feelings
scared of the abusers
I want to end it because I feel we’d be better off if I did
i’d be finally happy
happier than I am now
i’d be out of pain
there’d be no more pain no more sadness
we’d be at peace
I cant take it any more I realy cant
I hate myself and I hate my body
I hate how I look
I hate life
I just cant do this
im not going to do anything ok guys
I just feel like I want to
but im safe
I promised Eileen I wouldn’t do anything to the body
and i’ll keep my promise to her
cuz I don’t want to disappoint her
but it don’t stop me feeling like I want to
butterfly hugs
loves you
Emily
❤
Therapy Bits 
Hi Emily. The abusers can’t hurt you any more. And even though thoughts and feelings can be really scary, they can’t hurt you either. I’m glad you made that promise to Eileen. I know you can do this. xo
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hi. i hope i can. im scared. so so scared. butterfly hugs, loves you, em xoxo
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I’m so sorry Emily. you are not alone. Myra
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thanks Myra. im sorry you feel bad too. butterfly hugs, loves you, emily xoxo
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It’s okay, these feelings won’t last forever. Please message me if you need someone to talk to:) Stay safe x
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thanks. i emailed you. butterfly hugs, loves you, emily xoxo ❤
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Sending you lots of hugs and warm thoughts! Know there are people that care about you, you can make it!! ❤ ❤
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Thank you. I hope so. I really want to try hard. Butterfly hugs loves you emily 😚
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❤ ❤ You are welcome! Don't be afraid to call someone if your feelings get worse.
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I won’t. Thanks Joy. You’re the best. Love to you XXX
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I’m sorry yhou’re feeling bad Emily, and I’m glad you recognize that you don’t need to take those feelings out on the body. I pray that one day you will be a healed, happy twelve-year-old. xxx
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I wish for that too, I would love that more than anything. Butterfly hugs, love you Emily 😗
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We’re here for you Emily. Keep in touch with us and Eileen whenever you need to. xx
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Thank you Kerri I will you are too kind to me thank you again butterfly hugs loves you emily 🌻
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Hi Emily, hang in there. You are a strong young lady. You are stronger than the pain and the memories and the abusers! Sending you positive energy and virtual hugs every day!
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Thank you bee I appreciate the hugs, you’re so nice to me, thanks love you lots and lots XXX butterfly hugs love emily 🌸
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🐞 😚 you are very welcome 😚
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❤ ❤ thank you bee ❤ xxxx butterfly hugs, loves you, Emily xxxx
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Oh Emily I’m sorry you’re struggling so badly, hun. Remember you won’t feel always this way, it will pass. So that is good you’ve made that promise to Eileen, even though I know it’s hard for you to not break it. I’m here if you’d like to talk more you can always email me and you don’t have to hesitate. Sending you lots of safe hugs and butterflies to sit on your hands, fly around you, comfort you and make your life a bit easier. Hope things get better soon.
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thanks emilia. i love my butterflies. i will take lots of them. love you loads, butterfly hugs, love, emily xoxoxo ❤
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Aw, I’m so very sorry you feel this way. I’ve been there too. I hope it gets better soon.
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thanks miranda. its awful and it makes me feel so sad. butterfly hugs, loves you, emily xoxo ❤
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Hi Emily… Hope you feel better really soon!! I know its hard to hang on and go thru all the painful memories… Lots of us care about you and send you lots and lots of safe (((((hugs))))) ❤💜💚
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hi jaelin, thanks for the hugs! i like hugs! i dont feel much better today though, wish i did. butterfly hugs, loves you, emily xoxo ❤
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