I never did sleep. am up and ready to face my day. a long day at that. wont be able to nap either during the day today. am going to the basement club this morning, have a taxi booked for 9:45 to take me there. So nervous. But I know I’ll be fine, just feeling apprehensive about meeting the new staff. Will stay down there until around 1:30 and then go straight to my volunteer job. I hope we arent too busy today in friendly call. I could do with a light work load and a fairly quiet afternoon. When I come back home I have to cook dinner, so I doubt I’ll get to rest until quite late tonight. Thats ok too though. I’ll be ok. I feel kinda emotional I think its others feelings though not my own. The littles were really scared during the night, so I think its the left over feelings from that along with some nervousness and anxiety about going to the basement club. I wish rose hadnt canceled and was going with me but well I’m sure I can do this on my own too. I think if I do I will have accomplished a huge thing, setting my anxieties aside and just getting out there and doing it, going in to meet the staff despite my huge fears about it.