so i talked some in therapy today. we talked about how i miss my friends in jess’s system. i had good friends in her system and now i dont ever talk to them since they are in residential. i miss them so much. i feel sad that i cant talk to them when i want to. we used to email every day. we used to talk on the phone also. and of course we saw each other when we’d visit them in person too.
i told eileen that im afraid to let myself get close to another person or make friends in other systems because what if something happens and we dont talk, or what if something goes wrong.
eileen said its like being on an island, your alone on an island, surrounded by water, and afraid to reach out and connect with anyone. she said she knows im afraid but not doing it not connecting with others is cutting myself off from people.
she encouraged me to try to make some new friends. try to reach out. so i said i will try.
Emily, age 12