i’m awake. at almost 1 AM. I knew i would be. I knew I wouldnt be able to sleep. Ah well. I guess it is what it is right? If I cant sleep then I just cant. I need to do something else to distract myself from feeling things I dont want to feel and thinking things I dont want to think. What, i ask myself. REad? Nope. Done that already. Listen to music? No. Read blogs? Maybe. But well thats reading? But I have to catch up on my blog posts! There are thousands of them in my inbox and wp keeps adding more every day! lol. I’ll get there some day I will catch up some time I am sure. Until then though what to do? I didnt know so I decided to write. Writing always makes me feel good. I feel complete when I am writing, I love it. And I love the support of you lovely wordpress folk even more. You’ve all become like a family to me. Such a huge part of my life. I consider you all friends, although we’ve never met. This is a really great community. Blogging was one of the best things I ever did for myself. I hope tomorrow I am not too tired and I hope I can stay awake throughout the day. I wont be able to nap at all tomorrow at any stage. Just hoping I can stay upright lol. I’m wonderinf if I’ve lost any weight this week. It would be nice if I had. I hope I did.