just had our final apt with dr. barry for 3 weeks. she is away for 2 of them, and once she’s back it will be another week before we see her, we dont see her now again until the 29th.
this morning she had a student doctor with her, a male doctor, we usually dont allow them to come in to our sessions, but today I said it would be ok if he stayed. He seemed like a nice guy. And he has to learn too I suppose.
We talked about Eileen being away, she asked me how I am coping. I told her some of the things we’ve done to cope, like journalling, seeing friends, reading, etc. I also told her about Eileen recording a book for the kids, giving them a transitional object to keep for her while she’s gone, etc.
we talked about my volunteering, I told her about the incident yesterday where I had a suicidal caller on the phone, I was telling her that had really effected me, she asked me if I had support for when I get calls like that, so I told her I do, she seemed fine then once I told her I had enough support around that. I think she’s just concerned for me, concerned in case my own mental health takes a nose dive. I think its very sweet of her to be so concerned.
She went on to tell me that the CPN sarah is back from her holidays now, and that she’d put in a written referral for me to see her next week, she said Sarah would be in touch with me over the next few days and that we could meet or whatever I feel comfortable doing. I was feeling a little bit sad, because I hate when Dr. barry is gone, it brings up all sort of attachment pain, and 3 weeks is a long time, especially when I see her so often. She told me that it will go by fast, and to hold on to all of the resources I have, that I have a lot, and it will be ok, I will cope.
I want to believe her, I really do, so I will do everything I can to stay safe, and stay strong.
On the way up to the desk to make the next appointment, she asked me about my weight loss, as she forgot to ask while we were in the appointment. I was telling her how much I’m down now, and then she started to admire my top, saying I look really good, I am looking really well and that my top was beautiful on me. She’s sooo sweet. I love her and I felt so good when she said I looked nice.
I’m hopeful I can get through the next few weeks without too many issues, and before I know it she’ll be back and we’ll be seeing her again.