Feeling unstable

i dont feel good this morning. i am feeling extremely depressed. I woke up feeling that way. I am not sure why. Nothing happened to make me feel down. I just woke up feeling like I couldnt cope. I ate some breakfast. I wanted to just go back to bed but I pushed myself to stay up. I am reading blog posts now. It is helping. I wish I knew why I feel so low. But there is no rhyme or reason to it. I hate the bla feeling. Its an I couldnt care less sorta feeling. I just wish it would go away. I dont have plans for today. Maybe if i did I’d be better. I donno though just cant seem to get focused or motivated. I just want to veg. I just want to sleep too. I havent slept well at all. Last night was a write off. I couldnt sleep no matter what i did. Eventually at around 4 AM I fell asleep. After a lot of tossing and turning. I read my book for a while, but I could only read 2 chapters. I didnt feel up to reading any more of it. Thank god I have therapy tomorrow. It wont come quick enough.
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Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

30 thoughts on “Feeling unstable”

  1. I’m sorry you feel so badly and had a rough night. I also hate it about the low mood that it often comes so out of the blue and you just don’t know what to do with it and why it happened. Hugs. 🙂


  2. Hi Carol Ann, you are not the only having trouble sleeping. And having funny moods out of nowhere. I often stop wondering about the reason lately. Am just thinking there is no reason. That’s just how it is and I just need to take care of myself more than usual. That works often. Not sure if this is helpful but I hope you can relax a little today. Hugs Bee


      1. Don’t worry. It comes and goes. My mum passed away at the beginning of August and its always s tough time. Plus our neighbour has his tv in rather loudly. It’ll sort itself somehow …


  3. I’m sorry you’re feeling bad, but you said clearly yesterday why you felt bad then and that you were just waiting for it to be over. Maybe it’s just the letdown after that, or a little nervousness about certain days including bigger ones that can feel bad. Hugs if you want them, and we’re happy to listen and talk–


  4. Some of the feelings might be bc of Eileen’s upcoming holiday and dreading that. I’m sorry you have to go thru all of this….. I know we all do…. I always call it the gift that keeps on giving. Yes things get better and you are healing and you get more good days than bad days but it seems hard and unpleasant things keep popping up. (((((HUGS)))))


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