im jessy. im 13. i was out for all of yesterday, well most of it. and then this morning i went to therapy. i was feeling very confused. yesterday when i was out i just layed on the bed. i didnt talk to anyone, i was too scared. when i first came out we were outside, in the garden with our mom and sister. i didnt stay outside. i went back in and to my room. i just felt so scared. so lost and so confused. it feels like i dont know anything or anyone. everything feels really weird. i feel so weird. like everything around me is unfamiliar. eileen kept asking me questions this morning, she was trying to make me notice my body, but that felt too hard. she showed me how to give myself a hug. i tried i really tried hard to do it. but i didnt like how my body felt. it felt uncomfortable. she kept explaining to me that it is my body. that i am allowed to be in it. but i just didnt feel like it was my body. i felt all distant and far away and like it was hard to feel my legs and arms and stuff. in the end i sat down and we talked about other things. i knew eileen, because i’ve watched others talking to her. she doesnt know me though. i’ve never spoken to her before today.