i cant sleep. i’ve been thinking about my partner jess, whose currently residing in a psychiatric residential facility, a long term care facility. she’s been there for a couple of years. and i havent heard from her in a few months. so i decided to call her tonight. i couldnt reach her on the residents phone line. so i rang the main reception and the person who took my call said that they were cleaning the dining room right now so she told me to call back in 30 minutes. so i will. i really would like to talk to her and check up on her and make sure she’s ok. i miss her tons lately. its so hard not talking to her on a regular basis. like we used to. we used to talk every day numerous times a day when she wasnt in the psych facility, we’d spend hours on the phone or we’d email a lot back and forth to one antoher. i hope she doesnt think i dont think of her or that i dont care. i do care very much. its just so hard. so hard when half the time the residents phone isnt answered. hoping i can get through to her in a little while. fingers crossed. I’ll be so happy if i do.