having a Conniption

word of the day for today is…. conniption.

that is me right now. having a conniption. a canary. yes. i’m raging. i’m irritable. i’m agitated. i’m angry. angry at life. angry at the unfairness of things. why do I need to feel so badly? why do we need to always struggle? Life is so unfair. I’m really fighting anger. I want to scream, shout, pound the table I’m sitting at. My having a canniption is just me trying to release my feelings I know, but god, its scary! When rage takes you over, its hella scary!
I dont want to sit with it! I want it to go away!
But the word canniption? Isnt it a great word?
It says I’m raging! I’m struggling! I’m raging and this is not good!
I hope I can calm down soon. Another cuppa maybe?

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Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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