Back then versus right now

do you know who I am?
do you know who you have?
yes, i say meekly
its you, mary
yes, I know you
We’ve met before
about 10 years ago
when you were an inpatient
in the psych ward
oh damn do I have to remember that time?
that time you were so mean?
mean to my child parts?
that time lexi wanted to cut
with a lid off of a lip gloss?
and you counted to 3
said it so meanly
took the lid away from her
told her you would not stand and watch her do this to herself
you didnt care about the pain she was in
Oh no you didnt care
and today, today you were so different
you were kind
you acted nicely towards us
treated us with respect
treated us like a human being
as if we’d only just met
and you didnt know our history
today, today you were the kind of nurse
I wished you were back then
when we were in so much desperate emotional pain
carol anne


Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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