Im feeling a sense of longing tonight. Longing for eileen. I miss her.
I wish I saw her today. She did text me on Friday night, and she said she could fit me in this coming thursday, she doesnt work bank holidays, so thats why we didnt have a session today.
Im glad she can fit me in. I was glad she texted me. But god I miss her tonight.
Why, just when I am feeling good does this happen? I feel needy, and am also feeling a mix of apathy, agitation, and longing to cuddle with her too.
I want to text her. I probably wont. Im trying to hold off on doing that.
Its hard, though. Really, really hard.
I want to share all about my great day at the beach with her. It was such a normal day. A lovely normal and very relaxed day and I want to share it with her. But then I think, does she really want to know?
Im sure she was busy today with her own plans, or her family, her own life. Why should mine matter to her?
Right now the young parts are feeling very needy. And truthfully so am I.
I need a hug from her. A good long cuddle. I need reassurance. I need an its going to be ok, your ok.
Ill have to wait until thursday though to get any of that. Sigh.