STILL FEELING LIKE SHIT

IM NOT OK. NOT DOING WELL AT ALL TONIGHT. FEEL SO SUICIDAL. TRYING NOT TO BE A DEBBIE DOWNER BECAUSE WE ARE ON VACATION AND I KNOW THE REST OF THE SYSTEM ARE ALL HAVING FUN. IM NOT THOUGH. I CANT SEEM TO ENJOY MYSELF. THE DEPRESSION IS JUST TOO BAD. I FEEL TOO SHITTY. MY MOOD JUST IS AWFUL AND I FEEL VERY LOW. A BLACK CLOUD HANGS OVER ME. I HATE IT. IT IS SUCH AN AWFUL FEELING. WHEN WE GET HOME IM DEFINITELY GOING TO TALK TO EILEEN IN THERAPY ON MONDAY ABOUT HOW I FEEL. IM SURE SHE’LL HAVE GOOD SUGGESTIONS FOR ME. THIS HAS GONE ON NOW FOR ALMOST 2 WEEKS. I FEEL LIKE CRAP. AND I HATE FEELING THAT WAY.
LIZ

Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

25 thoughts on “STILL FEELING LIKE SHIT”

  1. It sucks you’re still struggling, Liz, even though you’re on vacation and everyone else’s having fun. I think it’s a good idea to talk to EIleen about it, I’m sure she’ll be able to help somehow. Hugs. πŸ™‚

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  2. I’m sorry it still sucks, liz. I’m glad you’re going to talk to Eileen and also I encourage you to think about how to exist while not having to take care of crisis for you guys all the time, you know? It seems like it’s really hard on you even if the rest of them are doing okay. Best wishes–love Donnalee

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