the pain of attachment

i feel a really strong pull to my therapist.
i know its the child parts. they want to be with her. they need her. hell i need her to. but somehow im feeling very vulnerable this morning.
trying best as i can to manage it. not easy but trying all the same.
attachment pain sucks. sucks doesnt even begin to cover it.
i can feel some very young parts surfacing. i’m trying to not switch out. because im in class. i cant really switch until im in the privacy of my room. its not safe.
think i’ll let the young parts email eileen. she’s always happy for us to do that. it might help them feel connected to know shes reading their words.

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

14 thoughts on “the pain of attachment”

  1. Oh, I’m so sorry you miss her so much right now. Sending you and all your littles safe, warm hugs. And yes, I think they should email Eileen if you all feel so vulnerable right now, even if she won’t respond, she’ll read your email.


  2. Does it help to know that often what attracts us in others is a reflection of what we have acknowledged about ourselves? Can you find the part of yourself that is “Eileen”? I have come to know the kind, caring side of you just through the blog. Maybe you and the little ones can list these attributes and feel them?


  3. Hope you’re doing okay. Attachment pain sucks. I always find the week after a break ends worse than any other time. Take care ❤


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