I must feel to heal

my body reacts
in fear
in anger
it trembles and shakes
threatens to destroy me
i feel
its a big deal
it sure is
because
i hardly ever feel
and when i do
my feelings are full
of hurt and pain
fear and shame
guilt, oh the guilt
but she says its ok to feel
and so i will…
even if it threatens to kill…
feel i must
to go forward
and to heal

Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

4 thoughts on “I must feel to heal”

  1. We understand that one. Without consciously trying we try to stay numb and when it starts to hurt we do whatever it takes to be numb again

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