Hard to love

I think I am very hard to love sometimes.
I make it hard for people to love me by pushing them away. I don’t mean to do it, sometimes I just cant help myself.
I really wish I didn’t push others away. I know it makes them feel bad.
I know they are only trying their best to reach me. and love me.
And I don’t make it easy that’s for sure.

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

23 thoughts on “Hard to love”

  1. There are things that we can’t help. To love somebody is a process and no one promised us a rose garden. I am sure your loved ones have parts that are difficult for you too. It’s a game of give and take on both sides. Sending you a blessing and love and light to love yourself and to forgive too. And by the way. I don’t think you are hard to love!

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  2. I could say it about myself too. I know what you mean. Pushing people away is something I do, though I don’t want to actually. But also I think everyone of us is hard to love in some way. We just need to at least to try to change what’s bad in us, accept what we can’t change and accept others as they are. It’s much easier said than done, but we should really try.

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  3. I know I do this as well and it is so hard to break. You don’t try to do it you just been hurt so many times you tend to keep everyone at arms reach longer and feel people out more, they feel as if your pushing them away. Maybe in a way you are because your scared and figure they are going to leave anyway the less invested you are so the sooner the better. If that makes since.

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