Hard day for us today

todays been hard for us.
we woke up feeling bad. actually it started last night. at around 7:30 we started to feel bad. taylor was doing really bad. she was having hallucinations and awful flashbacks. we started to panic and have really bad anxiety.
so i took us off to bed. and we stayed there until 8 this morning.
then we woke up when our mom came in to ask us if we wanted some breakfast, and so we got up.
we’ve eaten, and had a bath, and now we are online going through emails. and trying to be ok.
we have to be ok, we’re going out in the afternoon.
I hope we can manage to get through the day.
I am a little nervous about it. Plus I hate eating my food in front of a big group of people, and there will be 24 of us for dinner today. I told mom I was nervous, she said to try to not worry about it, that nobody will be looking at me.
so i’m going to try and enjoy myself.
carol anne

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

18 thoughts on “Hard day for us today”

  1. I’m sorry you’re struggling, and I hope you can manage to relax and have a nice day. I also hope the food will be yummy! Tell us all about your day afterwards 🙂


  2. So sorry you’re struggling so much. Hope things will get better. I also hate eating around other people, it’s so annoying and anxiety provoking when someone looks at me while I’m eating, even if it’s just one person, not to mention such a big group, so I really get it. Hope you’ll feel good with them though and have fun. 🙂


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