A huge shock

I’ve just gotten some really heartbreaking news. And I am in shock from it.

My friend has died. A very good friend that I knew for years. I only knew her online, we’d never met. But she was a great friend. A beautiful person.

Warm, kind, caring…compassionate, smart, intelligent.

She was only 33. Far too young to die.

She was blind like us. And she had did. And ptsd. And she also had foetal alcohol syndrome.

She’d been homeless since last October, in and out of the psych ward, and on the streets, and in and out of homeless shelters.

The last I heard from her was on February 20th, she was sick with the flu then. And staying in a motel.

Well, I just received news this morning from a friend of hers, she was found in her motel room on feb 28th, dead. I am heartbroken.

You really never know do you?
You never know what could happen on any given day. I certainly did not expect this to happen to her.
Its tragic.
Could use some support if any of you are around…

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

43 thoughts on “A huge shock”

  1. So sorry to hear of your sad news. You don’t even have to meet some people to feel you have a rapport with them. It sounds like your friend was going through a really difficult time. I hope she had support for her troubles and wasn’t alone.

    Hugs to you. xx


      1. Aww. I had a feeling in your post she had not much support, but I was hoping I’d be wrong on that. So sad. I’m sorry. I am speechless. No one should be alone, but at least she had you and her other online friends, which would have made a difference to her. x


  2. I’m really sorry to hear you lost your friend. Dealing with loss is really hard. I lost my cousin very suddenly to suicide — she had been suffering from lupus since she was 11 (21 at her time of death) and was hooked on pain pills, trying to get off, in constant pain all the time and she took her own life.

    Again, sorry for your loss. It’s hard realizing someone just isn’t here anymore. Big hugs. I’ll be available this weekend via email if you need to talk. Take care!


  3. So sorry for the loss of your friend! The relationships we form online can be just as fulfilling as in person if the connection is there. Even worse that she was so young. My condolences to you and anyone who knew her.


  4. I’m so sorry to hear your news this is so sad and must be such a shock for you. Be gentle with yourself today. Sending hugs xx


      1. I’m so sorry. I lost a best friend very suddenly a few years ago – she was just 26 and it has taken a very long time to start to accept she’s gone. Thinking of you xx


  5. I’m so sorry to hear about your friend. It sounds like she didn’t have much family to help her out. I know you gave her as much time and encouragement as you could and she knew that too. Those qualities you mentioned are wonderful ones and you can treasure those memories in your heart. Hugs, xxx.


  6. My very deepest condolences and sorrow for your loss.

    We do never know what the next millisecond will bring.

    I hope your friend did not suffer at the end of her life.

    I send you my love.


  7. I can’t believe it… I just can’t… it’s so… well I don’t even know what to say… I’m shocked too! I’m just so sorry for her, I didn’t know Katie for more than a year, but I feel like I knew her for much longer. Just too shocked and sad to say anything else right now. 😥 Hugs for you, I really do know how you’re feeling. It’s so sudden. ..


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