bla bla bla

i’m feeling so bla right now. apathy is setting in. i hate it. i’m starting to feel like i’m crashing. depression sucks. it really fucking does.
i cant sleep. its 3 AM and I cant sleep.
I’m afraid of going to sleep. I dont want to have nightmares.
I dont want to be feeling depressed and apathetic.
ok, carol anne, think of 3 positives.

1 nitro loves me
2 i’m warm and cosy in my nice house. i’m safe.

3 i’m emailing with friends and thats nice.

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

13 thoughts on “bla bla bla”

  1. You are amazing.

    You were going downhill. And you had the courage to challenge yourself to find 3 positives!!

    I know this is not always possible. I too experience this.

    I am so proud of you — and grateful for your being honest and open and willing to share.

    We (try to) look forward~~~


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