allie missing eileen

I miss Eileen tonight.

we shoulda been having our session today. but we didn’t cuz it was a bank holiday.

we’ll see her on Thursday. but it seems so far away.

I did email her though. I told her how much I loved her. and am missing her.

I took out her rose scent and sniffed it over and over. I don’t care if people think I’m weird. Eileen gave me the empty bottle and I always smell it and the scent still hasn’t gone out of it.

I also listened to her reading in my heart to me. I have that recorded. she said we can read another book soon. I cant wait. I will record her reading to us again. we left the book today I feel silly, and other moods that make my day in her office. so we’ll probably read that one.

Thursday better come quick. I need to go to therapy.
I need a hug from Eileen.

allie, age 9

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “allie missing eileen”

  1. Well, Allie, Thursday will be here before you know it, but I know that when you are nine, things seem to take a long time. When you’re my age, you can’t seem to slow time down! (grin) I’m glad you have little things to make you remember Eileen. Maybe one day, Carol Anne can get you some of the perfume Eileen wears and you can put a little of it on your hand and sniff it all the time. Hugs, xxx


    1. The cool thing is eileen and dr. barry wear the same perfume! isnt that cool? So when we get it I’ll be able to think of both of them when I sniff it! I’ll be so happy then! its real expensive though. so we have to save up for it. love, allie


  2. Hugs for you, Allie. 🙂 and Mishhugs if you want them. I hope Eileen will respond to your email. That’a pity indeed you coudln’t see her yesterday. I’m glad you have some things that remind you of Eileen and use them to help you with missing her so much.


  3. Even though Thursday is a few days away, Eileen still loves you just as much. I’m glad you’ve got the scent and the recording to keep her close to you whenever you need her. xo


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