well i know i said earlier i was gonna stay up. but in the end i didnt. i went back to bed. my head started hurting and i was really triggered with not being able to breathe. i stayed up for like an hour or so and then i figured i’d make an attempt to try to go back to sleep again. and it worked. well when i say it worked i tossed and turned and my phone kept blinging with notifications but i did sleep. then at 5 AM my friend rose texted me, and then rang me. she’s in a little bit of a crisis at the moment. she has bpd and anxiety and depression, amixture of all 3. she needed someone to talk to. i didnt really mind as i was just lying there awake anyway so its not like she woke me up. we talked for an hour. i hope it helped her. now i’ve just made coffee and got dressed even though its only 6 AM. at least my nose is clear right now, its not all plugged up. i hope it stays that way for a while. i have some time before breakfast as breakfast isnt until 8 AM. I will just go online and then at 7 let nitro out and feed him and stuff. i hope you’ve all had a pretty good evening and night, and if its still night for you I hope your trying to sleep.
carol anne

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

8 thoughts on “early”

  1. You are so kind to be there for rose.
    I am sick too. It is the oddest thing. I was totally fine all day yesterday then at 11pm it hit me. All at once i started coughing, sore throat, stuffy nose, and the worst headache ever. Being sick is very triggering for me too because it makes me feel vulnerable and I’m darn vulnerable enough!!!!
    I hope you are feeling ok today


      1. Everyone has been sick here. Husband and daughter both sick all last week and I had so hoped it had passed me by but nope. I hope it is a quick virus that gets out soon!!!

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