Evening ramble

well guys despite a lot of anxiety earlier and a little bit of exhaustion I have had a pretty good and very relaxed evening. I ate a very healthy dinner of roast chicken, potatos, cauliflower, carrots and peas. It was a residents birthday and so there was ice cream and birthday cake, but I resisted it, I didnt have any, instead I had my fruit salad. I was gonna give in and have some, but then I thought about going to slimming world on wednesday, stepping on that scales and possibly not losing anything. I thought about how disappointed I’d be if that happened, and so I said no to the cake and ice cream. Everyone kept telling me how much will power I had to not eat it. I suppose its true I do have determination to be able to refuse it. After dinner when I went upstairs I called a friend whose feeling a little down at the moment, and I talked to her for a bit. Then I decided that I’d take a nice long hot shower. I was hoping that would settle me some as I could feel the anxious feelings rising up again. So I took a shower and I felt so good afterwords. I got this new shampoo and I used it tonight. Its amazing, and smells sooo good you could almost eat it if you didnt know better 🙂 its papaya and mango and man its just amazing! After my shower I lay down and I decided I’d read, and if I fell asleep then that would be ok because of therapy today, I’m always pretty exhausted after the session. I did fall asleep. That was around 7:30 PM and I just woke up at 9:15. I let nitro out to do his nightly thing, of course he was ignoring me and refusing to come in again. So I let him out a little bit longer and I had to just wait until he was ready. He takes his sweet time about it though lol 😛 anyway, he’s in now. I’m about to make some tea now and watch some tv for a while. The anxious feelings have gone for now, again. Thank goodness. I hope they wont come back later when its time to settle down.
carol anne

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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