to my heart mom, eileen

hi eileen
its me, allie. i was thinking about you tonight.
i was thinking about everything that you do for me, and i wanted to write to you to wish you happy mothers day.
i wanted to say how much i love you. and to thank you too.
thank you for all the hugs. they are awesome.
thank you for caring about me and helping me process all the memories and bad thoughts that i get in my head sometimes.
i love you for doing it with me, helping me when i have nobody to go to for help. i love your office because it is my safe space. it represents safety to me just like you do.
thank you for letting me get angry and never leaving, for letting me rage and be mad and always being there to pick up the pieces and catching me when i fall.
thankyou for helping me to stop believing the lies my abusers told me.
thank you for everything. i love you and i hope you are not too sad today. i know this is probably a hard day for you but i hope this note makes you feel a tiny bit better.
love you,

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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