Problematic symptoms

ok so I am experiencing some symptoms which are problematic right now.


I thought I’d write them here just to keep a record of them.


symptoms that I am experiencing…


  • sleeplessness
  • severe anxiety
  • depression
  • impulsiveness
  • suicidal thoughts
  • low mood
  • anger outbursts
  • irritability and snappiness
  • overwhelm
  • hopelessness

wow. didn’t realist thesere were such a huge problem!


what to do?

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

26 thoughts on “Problematic symptoms”

  1. What is your protocol re: suicidal thoughts with therapist or staff etc.? Is it serious enough for you to take actions to prevent action in that direction? Otherwise it sounds like maybe meds, or chemicals in food, or an anniversary of stress, or a combination. Maybe it’s something like not enough vitamins etc. messing with you. Please be safe.

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    1. When I have the suicidal thoughts I will usually email Eileen then we will usually have phone checking or talk about them in session but if they are really bad then I will go to the ER to be assessed I will also talk to Doctor Barry and see if she can change my medication around

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  2. That’s so much to deal with. I’m very sorry. I think if there’s so many different symptoms there may be many factors making you feel this way. as for suicidal thoughts it’s good you keep in touch with Eileen in between sessions, but maybe you should focus on these thoughts more now since you experience them so much lately. Hugs. 🙂 Hope you’ll feel better soon.

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    1. Thanks. I will try. It’s hard to focus on them because they are so scary sometimes but I will try. I can’t heal them I guess unless I try to focus on them and talk about them. Thanks again Emelia your support means a lot

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  3. Wow … you do have a lot to deal with. I’m glad you have back up and support for when things get mega bad. You must be sick to death of having to deal with all this. If it was me, I’d book a double session with both the doctor and Eileen and work out a long term plan, a strategy. A plan that incorporates every single aspect of your life, including food, exercise, deficiencies, CBT, etc etc and get them to really focus on you, just you, and get you into a better place. I’m sending you huge hugs because this must be so hard for you. But this needs sorting and improving and that’s their job. ‘He who shouts loudest’ and all that! Attacking the problem from all angles is what I’d be doing. Don’t know if that helps, but it’s what I’ve had to do. Xx

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    1. Hard to pin them both down at the same time. But at least I’m not being hospitalised, there was a time when I was constantly in and out of hospital, at least there is that, at least know I’m stable enough that I can stay out of hospital and go on with my life to some degree

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      1. Absolutely … you are mega! You’re doing so well. Keep going, make a plan and go for it. Some things will make a difference and some won’t. I’ve started looking at myself as ‘a bit of a project’ which helps to de-sensitise and disassociate myself from the emotion. It’s actually quite a relief. I’d love to know what works for you …. I would imagine that it’s different for each and every person, but I know you can do this. You’re so strong … you’re a fighter! ❤️❤️


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