A victim of sexual abuse

Tears are always running down my face
I hang my head low thinking “what a disgrace?”
The tears are coming from all the damage you caused
What do you want now, a round of applause?

I’ve watched you rape and molest me right before my eyes
Now the only thing left to do is cry
You stole my virginity without my consent
PLEASE tell me why this is the way it went

All I wanted was for you to get off of me
But getting you off of me just wasn’t that easy
You hit me in my face then ripped my shirt
Then you pushed it in to the point where it hurt

I remember it like it was yesterday
Answer this, will I ever forget about this and be okay?
The thoughts are crucial & all I can do is cry
Sometimes I just think then ask myself “why didn’t I die?”

The bastard didn’t care if I lived or if I died
All he cared about was being satisfied
I feel dirty, I feel low, I feel used
I’ll always know that I’m a victim of sexual abuse!

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

43 thoughts on “A victim of sexual abuse”

  1. I am sorry for the evil things,, I as a male also a victim of years of sexual abuse, but reading fellow bloggers be able to tell the hurt they feel has made me realize that I can know tell my Of my abuse,,, I’m sending hugs to you

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      1. I always have strange feelings about it. Happy you’re not alone but sad that it happened to someone else. I hope all is well xx


      2. It is lol. It’s shocking because, the last time I tried to come out about my past it quickly went back in and haven’t in over 10 years. Strange how we may joe each other and others and never know. It’s upsetting how locked up you are


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