i feel icky

it taylor
i be feel ick
i am soo skard
i hearin voises
mean mean voises
they in my head
i cant get away frum them
i jus want them to leave me alon
im mad and sad and skard
thay tellin me bad fings
bad fings to do to my body
and that im stupid
and no good and ugly
and i shuld kill tha bodee
its so skary
i wish i can talk to eileen
but i cant cuz it nite time
shes in bed
so tha bigs tol me to rit here to all of you guys
so dat wat i am doin
hi eferon
im taylor or taytay
im six
and tonite i am skard of the voises

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

11 thoughts on “i feel icky”

  1. If I was there I would snuggle you close and keep all the meannies away from you.. Do you have the perfume bottle Eileen gave to you? You can close your eyes and smell her perfume and think about her holding you. Because I am sure she would hold you tight if she was there with you. πŸ’™πŸ’šπŸ’œ

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  2. Hi, sweetie. I’m sorry you’re feeling icky. the voices can’t hurt you. Just tell them to leave you a lone and go cuddle with Nitro. He’s not scared of the voices and he’s bigger than they are. Hugs. xxx

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  3. Oh, Taylor, I’m sorry you had such a rough night and that voices were scaring you, sweetheart. I also wish Eileen was with you then when you were so scared. Hope you feel better now. Hugs. πŸ™‚

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