thoughts of suicide.
I feel so low. its a far cry from how I felt an hour ago. I hate that my mood dips so suddenly.
it makes me feel so crazy.
why cant I be normal? I hate my mental illness.
I want to scream, scream until I have no air left in my lungs.
Anger overtakes me. Anger at the unfairness of it all.
Right now, I hate my life. I know this thought will be temporary though. I wont hate it forever.
I think I’d be better off dead.
Ok so I cant think that way. I need to try to do something to get that thought out of my head, otherwise I might act on it as I can be very impulsive when I am like this.
Ok, count to three. Breathe deeply. Go and find something to distract me.
Good idea. Thanks for reading.