I think I need an ativan

i’m awake and its 4 AM. i managed to sleep for a little while. maybe an hour. possibly two hours. i woke at 2 am. i got up and went out to the nurses station, but there was nobody at the desk. so i came back to bed and went on my computer.

i’m so anxious. so jittery. feeling so agitated.

i think i need something to take the edge off. but not sure they’ll give me something now. with only 4 hours to go until we get up.

kids are scared. they dont like the dark. they also dont like being in a ward with five other people.

i’ll keep trying to manage, hopefully i’ll be able to hang on.
Amy age 15

Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

9 thoughts on “I think I need an ativan”

  1. well i’m here… hopefully you’ll feel better soon, amy. thanks for sharing! you’re being very responsible and grown-up. good job!

    hey… kids. lexi, darina… it’s going to be alright. you have your other parts there with you, and you have each other. pretend you’re in a tent, and tell each other stories. happy stories. like about the christmas fairy. amy is strong enough to take care of you, so trust her. everything’s going to be ok.

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