we are Not doing well

feeling emotional. want to cry. cant though. need to stay ok. have to go in the taxi to dr. barrys. maybe can cry when we are with her. but when we try it doesnt happen. our emotions get shut down. stuck. we freeze. we cant let it out. even tho shes safe. shes one of our two safe people. and we love her. but we cant. cant let it out. we are drowning. drowning in pain. swimming in trauma and grief and desperation. pain, overhwlm and pain. feel like i will explode. system is in chaos. cant do dthis.
carol anne

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

21 thoughts on “we are Not doing well”

  1. Praying you get some relief and peace soon. ๐Ÿ’œ I am stuck in my own emotional chaos and turmoil so I understand completely all too well. Hoping your session w Dr Barry helps you today. (((HUGS)))

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  2. Oh.. I hope you will feel better soon. Feeling trapped as if you canโ€™t breathe is all too familiar. I hope it passes sooner than later๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

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  3. I hope Dr. Barry was able to help you today. I know the system hasn’t been good for the last few days, ever since you talked to the abuser. I hope dr. Barry helped you to stabilize or was able to talk to the one who could do the most to get you stabilized. xxx

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  4. hope your appt goes well, I am sure Dr. Barry will help you. Please let Carol Anne do the talking so she can get you all the help that you need from Dr. Barry. I know it is all so overwhelming right now. I am here if you need me as well. xoxo

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