I am back. Thank god!
Thank you Brooklyn and Amy for keeping this show on the road while I was MIA!
It is thanks to our wonderfully skillful and amazing therapist Eileen that I am back. Amy called her after they exchanged a couple of emails and she was able to get me back. Not sure how she can, but she’s always able to find me and bring me out of whatever non functional state I am in.
I am forever grateful to her for doing that and helping me as I am needed here and it is never a good thing when I am down. But, how i got here?
I was triggered. I recieved a phone call from an unwelcome person. That person set me off. They were able to trigger me by something they said to me. It was not good.
I felt myself going, but could do nothing to stop it. I could feel the dissociation coming on. I could feel the familiar sense of floatiness coming. I knew I was going away.
It was awful. I knew my system needed me and i wanted to stay here for them but I couldnt.
So alls i can say is, thank god for a therapist who knows a lot about did and dissociaition and parts. Thank god she knows what to do in this situation.
Anyway. Alls well again now. Thanks for all of the kind comments from all of you. I’ve just read all of them.