I had time with Eileen


I got to have time with Eileen this week, I like that. We talked about a lot of things and are used the punters. I never used them before. They helped me to be able to bring up memories, and they weren’t all bad memories either. Some of the more happy memories, like memories of being in preschool and the phone are used to have when I was there. We talked about the assessment and I told Eileen I am upset with Doctor Barry because she thinks I don’t take my mads because I want to stay sick but that’s not true I don’t take the medication because it makes me feel sick especially since I overdosed so many times on medication before and so when I take it it makes me feel sick like I’m gonna throw up. I do like Doctor Barry I’m just murdered her right now. I will have to talk to her and tell her that the reasons why I don’t take my medication sometimes are not the same reasons that she thinks. Right now though I don’t want to talk to her I just want to talk with Eileen. We talk about my feelings and how sometimes I feel very hopeless and very sad and like I want today. Eileen said that was very sad. She keep me some homework for the week. I’m supposed to do one activity and take time for myself and do something nice. So I think I’ll probably listen to music and look up some information about butterfly something like butterflies a lot. I know this phone is messing up and not getting all my words right I think it doesn’t understand my voice sometimes. Dictation can be a bit of a nightmare sometimes. Anyway I like having time in therapy and I hope I can have time again soon


Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

16 thoughts on “I had time with Eileen”

  1. Hi Emily. So glad you had your time with Eileen today πŸ’œ glad that you are looking forward to doing the homework she gave you. I think you will enjoy it!! 🌸🌹

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  2. well i get what you’re saying emily…. i suggest eating something you like too. it helps. i understand about the sickness with medication. i would narrow down the intake of it, but try just taking one at a time, with lots of space in between, and try thinking about something you love while doing it.

    but i understand the nausea part. that happens to me too. hope you feel better about it. ❀

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  3. Emily, I’m so happy that you had some time with EIleen and that it was so good. πŸ™‚ It’s good that you’re working together. I hope you’ll do many nice things this week. πŸ™‚ Hugs. πŸ™‚

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  4. Hi Emily. I’m glad you got to spend time with Eileen. It does help to express how you are feeling. As for the meds, it’s important for the body to take them, so maybe you can make sure that someone else takes them that doesn’t have your problem with them. I would definitely explain your reasoning to Dr. Barry. I’ve never tried the dictation app on my Iphone. Just having Siri to do the texting doesn’t include punctuation so it’s only good for short things. xxx


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