so i asked mom if she’d like to come to our did reassessment which will be happening on december 8th. she said no. she said she would not be abel to cope. and i have to respect that. as hard as it is for me to hear. as hard as it is that she would rather not know too much about our did diagnosis. i think its more about her being in a room full of professionals and not knowing what to say. they’ll be discussing my treatment going forward. she did not say this but i think she might feel she would not have any input into it. so she’s not coming. i am sad about that. i really did want her to be part of it. i reached out and i offered, its all i can do. she has to take the next step and she simply isnt ready for that yet.