its so hard to prepare for starting the ILS course. its going to be such a huge change. being away from monday till friday of each week. trying to get laundry done each weekend, washed dried and ironed again for monday. i dont own a ton of clothes. i wear leggings mostly. leggings and dressy tops. i have a lot of tops. but i didnt have a lot of leggings, i bought two new pairs, and in the next week or two I’m going to buy two more pairs. that way i can have five for one week, and have a few spares just in case the clothers arent dry for monday. i’ve already had an argument with mom this morning. she said i was stressing her out. i asked her to help me next weekend, to get groceries and stuff. because it turns out i wont be meeting my new pa until the week after, so next week i’ll be without a pa. so i will need moms help. but it turns out next friday my sisters getting her wisdom teeth out, all four of them. and thats been planned for months. moms taking the kids for the night. i understand that that was planned. but i’m just, well i dont know how else i’m going to get groceries. anyway. mom came up with a solution. good thing too as i was starting to freak out. she said if i get on the phone with her at some point during the week next week, that she’d write a list of what I need and get it when she gets her shopping on Thursday, and then drop the food to my house so that when I get there on friday it will already be there. good thinking mom! so thats what we are going to do. she kept telling me everything would work out. i was worrying because she tld me i’d have to drop off my clothes to her each friday so she could wash them and then dry them and when i come for dinner and to say on sunday night i can pack up for going down to the ILS course again on the monday. i know it sounds a lot more complex than it actually is. thats me though, complex, lol. nothing is straightforward with me lol. so i’ve been stressing all morning. and i’m feeling quite irritable now and emotional and vulnerable. i need to just keep my distance from everyone for an hour or two, give me and my system time to calm down.
carol anne

Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

5 thoughts on “Preparation!”

  1. Yeah, such preparations can be hard and even stressing out. I think leggings are the best choice for such course, I also like leggings, when I was at boarding school I was wearing them almost all the time, it was most comfortable, my Mum says leggings are the best when you’re not at your own home for longer, you can just wear them with almost everything and for almost any occasion and they’re pretty easy to wash. Your mum had a great and very reasonable idea. 🙂 I think it should work for you.


  2. Do you know what your living arrangements will be like? Will you have your own room but share bathroom, kitchen etc? Or will you have like your own apartment? Or will you have to share a room? Will they have laundry facilities there in case you need it during the week?


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