Messy emotional overload

so yeah, its not a good morning. we left respite and came back to mom and dads. and now we are spiraling. the system is in chaos. we are really regressed. flitting in and out of really bad dissociative episodes. its horrible. feeling quite detached, numb, foggy, not quite there, depersonalisation at its finest. anxietys through the roof too. probably not helped by the very little sleep we got last night.

will be seeing sarah in an hour. plan on telling her everything. not sure what she’ll say or do. she may refer us to the weekend team. i dont know. part of me thinks that is pointless. i mean what can they really do? besides hospitalise us and i am not being hospitalised. no way. i am starting college next week. i need to just suck it up and be ok.

i should be able to be ok. it shoudnt be that hard. why is it so hard to ground? i am trying literally everything. nothing is working right now. perhaps sarah can help us regroup and ground. i hope so.

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

12 thoughts on “Messy emotional overload”

  1. That’s worrying. I hope Sarah will be able to help you somehow and maybe weekend team also would be helpful. I know they probably can’t do very much and you don’t know them really well as far as I remember, but maybe just the fact tat someone will have check in with you and will care for you during the weekend will help. I hope it won’t be necessary for you to be hospitalised. And extra therapy sounds reasonably, at least if you can get it. Hugs! 🙂 Write to me if you want and if it could help you, I’m always here you know.

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  2. This always seems tohappen when a big event is about to happen in the life of the body. I hope you can regroup and have everybody in the system okay about next week. xxx

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