Put on the breaks guys

yes. to my system, please, stop! I am swimming in trauma here. remember what eileen always says? step back, dont flood me. if you flood me, i cant go on with day to day life. if you flood me we’ll become totally destabilised. do you remember eileens words? she’s said them often enough to us. well i am reminding you all of her words now. please guys. do not flood me. we will get to everything thats going on. we have time. there is no rush. i know you all want to be heard. and you will be. its ok. honest guys its ok. i promise its ok. but i need you to know that when you flood me i get suicidal. overwhelmed. very emotional. tonight i think we need to be gentle with ourselves. we need to take care of us do some self care things. not cut or drink or OD or or or…not die. not go down the road of bad coping skills. ok guys? tomorrow we will see eileen. we will talk and work some of this stuff out. for now though, if you feel unsafe, go to the room we created inside, that room with eileen in it. you’ll be safe there.
carol anne

Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

4 thoughts on “Put on the breaks guys”

  1. Okay, where are the adults? You need to help Carol Anne out. I know the young ones are stirred up, but you adults can help out. Savanna, Jade and whoever there are that are really adults and older than Carol Anne, she needs your help. As she is your representative most of the time to the outside world, she can’t afford to fall apart because if she does, you will. If you help her, then she can help you. xxx

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