i feel so sad today. i hate it when the bigs are suicidal. it makes me so nervous.

i dont want them to do anything silly. sometimes they dont think they just do stuff without thinking. eileen calls it impulsivity.

i wish i could hug eileen right now. i emailed her. that helped. i told her i miss her.

everyone inside is sad. not just me. i hate sad feelings. they pull me down and make my tummy go all wobbly.

if any of my friends are around i’d like to talk to you. then i would feel better.
allie 9

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “allie”

  1. Hi, Allie. I’m sorry the big ones are feeling so bad. I’m sure it must make you feel insecure. Don’t you want to say, “Come on, grownups, if you can’t figure it out, what am I supposed to do as I’m just nine!) Well, maybe you can go to the Eileen room inside and remember things she has told you. You can also cuddle with Nitro and your stuffed rabbit. I hope you start feeling better. hugs. xxx

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