Current mood

stressed out. fearful. worried. anxious.

remembering, not wanting to. finding it hard to ground myslf.

unable to wind down. cant go to bed unable to settle cant turn off my mind.

feeling apprehensive, overwhelmed, desperation…

wishing eileen had responded to emilys email. she hasnt, and probably wont. sometimes she is really attuned to us, however not tonight.

Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

7 thoughts on “Current mood”

  1. I know it is hard, but try to relax and think of something, anything that is more pleasant. Breathe slowly in and out and picture a nice place. Know that others care for you and want the best for you. God bless you!

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  2. Hello dear one, so sorry to hear you’ve been feeling stressed. I’m glad a shower can help. Don’t forget Eileen cares deeply about all parts of you, including Emily. If she’s occupied and unable to answer an email, that doesn’t mean anything about her devotion to you. You can rest easy and trust she is still there for you, I know.

    Sending hugs to all parts! Love, Q.

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    1. Yes I know, I am trying to remember that. I am trying to remember all the things she said that lets me know that she cares. Doctor Barry says I need to try to internalise the things that she says so I am trying to practice doing that. XX

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  3. I’m glad you feel a little calmer after shower. I’m sure Eileen cares for you a lot, there’s no doubt. Try to think about pleasant things, like maybe nice moments with Eileen, when she hugged you or anything like this? And use her perfume bottle maybe to feel more connected to her. Or think about your nice time in Disneyworld? I know how frustrating it is when negative thoughts, unpleasant feelings and bad memories seem to be all around you, but try not to let them overwhelm you and replace them with nice ones.

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    1. Yes I am trying 🙂 not easy but I am trying hard 🙂 I hope I will be able to put the bad thoughts out of my head and replaced them with nice thoughts about Irene and other safe people in my life 🙂 XX


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