i’m feeling so much attachment pain right now.
i just want a cuddle from eileen. I am craving one and have been all evening.
Yes I can get one from her tomorrow, I know that, but I need her now, not tomorrow. I wish the hours would speed by so it was 10 AM tomorrow morning.
10 AM is our session time. And I cant wait.
i want to say to her tomorrow that i dont ever want her to leave me. that i dont feel secure at all in our relationship at the moment. why? because old triggers have come back.
they are threatening my stability and my sense of security and i dont like it. i want to tell her all this. but not sure i can. i’m too scared.
right now i feel hurt and ashamed and abandoned and emotional. i feel like i cant do this i cant feel this level of attachment pain.
but i dont have a choice. i cant phone eileen, she’s probably in bed. i did email her. and i decided to write here and reach out to my friends for support.
so if your reading this, and can offer any advice or suggestions, i’m all ears.
Therapy Bits 
I am so sorry that you are hurting. I know your pain. Sometimes when I lay in bed I wrap the blankets tightly around me and close my eyes and try to remember how it feels to be snuggled up close to Cindy. (My therapist). Do you still have Eileen’s perfume bottle?
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Yes we do. Just took it out now. It’s helping 🤗💜😘😘
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I pray… and let myself be aware of how much Jesus loves me… and rock in my hammock… hammocks are very cuddly:)
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I love hammocks. They are so comforting 😃💟
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Aren’t they?:)… I don’t have money for a therapist … and didn’t know they cuddled …?
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Mine does but most don’t. Hugs and safe touch are an important part of my therapy. Xx
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:)… thank u for sharing
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🙂 thanks for reading 😘
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:)… it was comforting … my heart was hurting this afternoon and I saw what you wrote and thought Hey!… I feel like that too… only not about a therapist.. just little and alone
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Hugs for little you 💜😘
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Thank you❣️
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I’m sorry you craved Eileen so much yesterday. I think now it’s better, ’cause you’ll see her very soon or even saw her already probably, but I send you lots of hugs anyway if you want and hope you got, or will get, a hug from Eileen. 🙂
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we were seeing her when this comment came in. We did get a big hug from her. It felt so good. xx
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I am sorry that you are going though this friend. I understand how bad attachment pain can be. I was looking forward to my appts today and I had to cancel them due to a health issue I have going on at the moment. Stay strong.
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aw I am sorry you had to cancel your apts! That sucks. I hope you start to feel better soon, ❤ xoxox
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Thanks friend. I hope your appt went well today
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It did, thanks 😊
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Sorry you feel this attachment pain too. Hope by now you’ve seen her and she’s given you the biggest ever hug. Hug from me too if you’d like and it helps x
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Thank you lost little fairys! I appreciate the hugs so much. We saw Eileen. And she did give us a massive hug. It made us feel so warm and so safe. xxx
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