I canceled my appointment with Karen O my nutritionist which was meant to be tomorrow morning. I didn’t want to cancel it but my PA who usually takes me isn’t here this week, and money is tight so i really didn’t have a choice in the matter. It upset me to have to cancel though. I’d been looking forward to my weigh in which makes a change. I’d worked really hard again this week and was hoping it would pay off. I did buy some batteries for my own scales and I weighed myself on it. It says I am down but I don’t trust my own scales if I am honest. I’ll just keep hoping it is true and I am down and wait until next week to find out for sure. I talked to Eileen the other day about body issues and her take on things was the more we keep working on the trauma work and doing parts work and working on the memories of trauma and stuff that parts are holding the less the body image issues will haunt us. Emily whose 12 has been throwing up a few times lately when she is stressed. She’s also been counting calories which with this weight loss programme we are doing I don’t allow that. So next week Emily is going to have some therapy time to discuss what is triggering her and what is going on for her. Its such an ongoing battle. I do hope it will get easier over time and we wont always struggle with our weight.