I canceled my appointment with Karen O my nutritionist which was meant to be tomorrow morning. I didn’t want to cancel it but my PA who usually takes me isn’t here this week, and money is tight so i really didn’t have a choice in the matter. It upset me to have to cancel though. I’d been looking forward to my weigh in which makes a change. I’d worked really hard again this week and was hoping it would pay off. I did buy some batteries for my own scales and I weighed myself on it. It says I am down but I don’t trust my own scales if I am honest. I’ll just keep hoping it is true and I am down and wait until next week to find out for sure. I talked to Eileen the other day about body issues and her take on things was the more we keep working on the trauma work and doing parts work and working on the memories of trauma and stuff that parts are holding the less the body image issues will haunt us. Emily whose 12 has been throwing up a few times lately when she is stressed. She’s also been counting calories which with this weight loss programme we are doing I don’t allow that. So next week Emily is going to have some therapy time to discuss what is triggering her and what is going on for her. Its such an ongoing battle. I do hope it will get easier over time and we wont always struggle with our weight.

Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

11 thoughts on “Canceled”

  1. Not to sound pessimistic, but I think weight will always be an issue. I’ve been trying to not indulge in bad foods but lately, I’ve just said fuck it since I’ve gained 8 pounds without doing anything but take my meds. It’s really hard because I can’t exercise at all so need to watch my food intake. It is always a struggle even if you don’t have eating disorder issues. I hope I’m not offending you. Just my thoughts

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  2. You’re not alone in the struggle w your weight! I am sorry you had to miss your appointment. I am proud of you for all your hard work and dedication. Hoping you will see good results next time. Keep going strong 😘

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  3. I hope you can get to the bottom of Emily’s problem and nip it in the bud as her throwing up and counting calories reminds me of the young girls around her age that start to become anorexic. That’s the last thing your system needs. they say that if you put the scale on the bare floor and not carpet, it’s a bit more accurate. when I lived in a place with a lot of carpet, I used to weigh myself in the kitchen or bathroom. I hope your scale is accurate and that you are down a few pounds.

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    1. Emily does have a diagnosis of Bulimia she’s had that for a long time. We will nip it in the bud I will get to the bottom of what’s going on for her if it’s the last thing I do. Thanks for your support as always deb xxx


  4. It’s a pity that you had to cancel an appointment with Karen, but hopefully it’s true that you’re down a bit. Maybe you’ll be a little more down next week so you’d have a big reason to be happy and proud of yourself when you’ll see Karen. I hope that talking to Eileen will help her with her issue.

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