no dr. barry for two weeks

dr. barry is on holiday now. she has taken a week off. why? because her kids are going back to school. i am so jealous. i am so jealous of her kids. thats crazy, i know. i cant help it though. i feel like i want to kick off. i want to be a spoilt brat and say you cant leave dr. barry. you have to stay here, because we need you. the young parts are really sad and hurting. they want a mom, and they want dr. barry to be that mother figure to them. hearing that she’s going to spend time with her boys is breaking their little hearts. they want to spend time with her, knowing they cant, that hurts its a huge gaping hole. its raw and it rips at our heart.
having no contact for a week, hurts.
we wish we could email her. but she wont allow us to do that. its a boundary she has.
fucking boundaries, they suck.
god i miss her tonight. i keep replaying her telling us to take care of ourselves this week and she’d see us in two weeks.
its so fucking long. too long.
ga, why did i get so attached?

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “no dr. barry for two weeks”

  1. I’m very sorry that you won’t see Dr Barry for so long. I know that two weeks can be unbelievably hard when you miss someone and are as attached as you are to her. Luckily you have Eileen now, but it’s sad you have to experience attachment pain so often. Maybe if you can’t email Dr Barry, send an email to Eileen and tell her how you’re feeling?

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  2. I truly can understand this as when my therapist leaves for vacation I go through the same emotions. I wish I could go with her as stupid as that sounds. Its hard to become to attached.

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