just bla

I feel bla. Neither here or there. Just like ug this is pointless, life is pointless.

Dont know what brought me to this place tonight. I dont like it though. Its like this kind of flatness. a kind of resigned life is just icky.

Can anyone relate? I hope so as I hate to be alone with my thoughts and these feelings.

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

22 thoughts on “just bla”

  1. just stumbled across your blog, but yep can definitely relate. I tend to call it ‘feeling nothingness’ when i feel like that- it really sucks.
    Hope you feel a bit better tomorrow.
    Maybe watch a comedy or something? that sometimes works to lift my mood (though obviously I’ve no idea if it’ll work for you- hopefully it will)

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      1. if you’re finding it difficult to put a film on, could you just watch silly videos on YouTube? I tend to watch MenTry or FailArmy. They’re really stupid, but that’s perfect when i’ve got a foggy brain- I don’t need clever humour, just something that’ll distract me from the general shittiness of everything

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  2. I don’t know about your particular type of blahness, but it’s fairly normal to feel blah at times. You don’t feel good you don’t feel bad, just kind of in the middle. Sometimes it’s because of boredom, but you can’t think of what to do to not be bored. Watching funny videos is a good idea.

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  3. Jamie has no cares! He eats, sleeps and does all other doggy things. He pays no bills, buys no food. He is convinced that he is the boss. He is, at present curled up on my bed, probably watching my fingers type this. If I reach a hand over to him, he will turn over on his back for me to rub his tummy. What a life!

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  4. Sometimes I wonder how they can breathe. Jamie will curl up with his tail over his nose, or his nose buried in the covers. Doesn’t bother him, though. Does Nitro dream? Jamie barks and growls in his dreams.

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  5. Yeah, I definitely can relate, I felt this way not so long ago, I get you, I think. Watching something funny would be really a good idea, generally doing something that will make you laugh or smile, something positive.

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