my dog and me

awakened from a bad dream
I rush to the bathroom
i stand alone
shivering and shaking
crumple to the floor
scream please, no more
memories threaten to swamp me
i cower
feeling so many emotions
so much shame
so much pain
so much, way too much
turn on the shower
allow the water to run over my body
cool refreshing water
as it runs over me i sob
my head begins to throb
I take big gulping sobs
its so healing
this memory cant hurt me
i say over and over
I am safe, I am safe
Nitro walks in
Sticks his wet nose against me
turning off the shower
fall to the floor
pull him close
so many doggy kisses
so much love
its that love I have to keep close now
remembering he is here for me
no matter what
I am safe
He is here
I am safe
We are safe
We are safe and free


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

4 thoughts on “my dog and me”

  1. What we would do without animals! Misha also soothes me and calms me down after nightmares, so I can relate to it really well.


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