my mood is all over the place. going up, and then down. i feel like I’m on a roller coaster ride and cant get off. and it sucks.
I miss eileen tonight. I have emailed her but that didnt help much. I wish I could hug her, just to feel her strong arms around me, to hear her heartbeat, to have that contact with her.
I feel really young. I cant put my finger on how old I feel but very young and childlike. Its hard to feel this way. So much emotion, so much rawness, so much attachment pain?
I hope I can sleep soon.