mood is spiking

my mood is all over the place. going up, and then down. i feel like I’m on a roller coaster ride and cant get off. and it sucks.

I miss eileen tonight. I have emailed her but that didnt help much. I wish I could hug her, just to feel her strong arms around me, to hear her heartbeat, to have that contact with her.

I feel really young. I cant put my finger on how old I feel but very young and childlike. Its hard to feel this way. So much emotion, so much rawness, so much attachment pain?

I hope I can sleep soon.


Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

7 thoughts on “mood is spiking”

  1. Yuck, I hate moodswings. I’m sorry you can’t hug Eileen now, I’m sure it would really help you. When I feel like this, like when I’m down or I miss any of my loved ones I have the one thing that always helps me. And it’s not surprising. Misha. Actually cuddling with Misha, doing anything with Misha. Even Misha’s presence is soo soothing for me. I’d cuddle with Nitro if I were on your place, it really might help you. Hugging Misha always makes me feel much safer, it should also work this way with you and Nitro. 🙂 And I send you a big big hug from me. 🙂

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