i cant sleep. maybe if i went to bed later and didnt just fall asleep at weird times, it would be better. i didnt plan on going to bed at 8:30 tonight. I planned on staying up and watching some tv or a movie. But then when the internet quit working I got frustrated and so just went to bed. I was going to read my book I am starting a new one, but then I just dozed off. 5 hours later I awoke. And now I’m wide awake, and 3 cups of coffee later I’m again frustrated. I just ate some fruit salad, was going to save it until later this morning before I head out but got hungry so just ate now instead, it doesnt really make much of a difference. I’m seeing dr barry this morning. I’m excited to see her its been 2 weeks. Thats too long since I am used to seeing her on a weekly basis. My friends say I am very lucky, most of the people I know who are under her care never see her or rarely do. They have to make do with junior doctors and will only see her if they go into hospital. I know I am lucky. I know she takes very good care of me. I appreciate that and value my time with her. I’m not sure what we will talk about today. Respite maybe, therapy maybe, sleep and meds, etc. I plan on going straight home after my appointment. No plans for the rest of the day the only thing happening is my home help will come and help me cook. She wont be coming until 5 PM though so I will have the day to myself. I might ask my friend norma if she wants to come over tomorrow evening to hang out for a while. I havent seen her in a few weeks although I’ve spoken to her on the phone. Its raining outside. I am glad. We needed some rain to cool things off. The weather was so muggy and sticky lately. A little rain will be good and will cool the place down.