I REALLY ADMIRE YOU

THAT IS WHAT EILEEN SAID TO ME YESTERDAY. WE WERE TALKING ABOUT OUR RESOURCEFULNESS. AND RESILIENCE. AND WE WERE DISCUSSING WAYS IN WHICH I AM RESOURCEFUL. I TOLD HER ABOUT A TIME WHEN WE WERE BODY AGE 21 AND WE WERE A YOUTH CLUB LEADER AND WE USED TO TAKE KIDS ABROAD. AND ONE TIME THERE WAS A SOCIAL WORKER WHO TRIED TO STOP US FROM GOING ON A TRIP BECAUSE SHE SAID OUR MENTAL ILLNESS MADE US A DANGER TO THE KIDS. IT DIDNT HAPPEN, WE STILL WENT ON THE TRIP, BUT THE VERY FACT THAT SHE TRIED TO GET US STOPPED FROM GOING WAS TRAUMATIC. SO I WAS TELLING EILEEN THAT YESTERDAY AND SHE ALL OF A SUDDEN SAID, WOW! YOU ARE AMAZING! NOT ONLY BECAUSE YOU CANT SEE AND DID THIS, BUT THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE SUCH GET UP AND GO! YOU DONT LET THINGS HOLD YOU BACK! YOU KEEP GOING YOU ARE SO RESILIENT! I’M SERIOUS, I ADMIRE YOU SO MUCH. I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO THAT. SO I JUST THANKED HER. IT DID FEEL GOOD THOUGH TO HEAR HER SAY THAT TO ME. I FELT SO SPECIAL. IT FELT LIKE SOMEONE FINALLY RECOGNISED THE CHALLENGES WE FACED ON A DAILY BASIS, HOW IT WAS NOT JUST EASY FOR US TO DO CERTAIN THINGS, HOW OUR BLINDNESS DOESNT GIVE US A FARE CHANCE. BUT WE DID THOSE THINGS, AND WE WERE A DAMN GOOD YOUTH CLUB LEADER IF I DO SAY SO MYSELF. I’M HAPPY SHE VALIDATED US. ITS SOMETHING ELSE TO REMEMBER DURING TIMES WHEN WE DONT FEEL CONNECTED TO HER. WE CAN REMEMBER HER WORDS TO US ABOUT HOW RESILIENT WE ARE AND HOW THE ADULT PARTS OF US CAN HANDLE THINGS. AND FOR THAT I AM GLAD. THANK YOU EILEEN FOR YOUR UNWAVERING VALIDATION OF US ALWAYS.

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Author: manyofus1980

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “I REALLY ADMIRE YOU”

  1. Wow, so great! It’s always nice when someone admires you, but it’s even more when it’s someone you really like and feel very attached to. And I must say I think Eileen was right, I also think you’re very resilient, I guess I don’t know many people who are as resilient and strong as you are. 🙂

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